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learning to love you more
Tuesday, November 18, 2014
Learning to Love Me More
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Monday, June 20, 2011
assignment #27
Take a picture of the sun. Just a picture of the sun, nothing extra or fancy. Please make sure the sun is visible in the photo, we won't accept reflections of the sun or photos where the sun is not visible.
Primavera Sound on the last day in Barcelona, Spain
Monday, April 18, 2011
assignment #37
The next time you have an argument, write down what you and the other person said to each other. Write this in a script form, like:
Me: You said you would do the dishes if I made dinner.
Henry: What? I'm going to do them. I just don't want to do them immediately. Some people like to digest first.
etc.
Try to be really accurate, capturing the real words that were used. If there was important movement this can be included in parentheses: (Henry turns on the tv.) The argument need not be long or dramatic, it can be brief and seemingly petty. The most important thing is that it be an accurate record of the exchange. If possible, ask the person you were arguing with to also complete this assignment and submit a separate report. This person can either use the same argument (if they have a different memory of it) or another argument with you or someone else.
Just some back information... For the past seven months, I have been living in the Czech Republic. There is a very clever and funny 17 year old boy that likes to hang out with us. He spent the first few years of his life in England and takes English in school, so needless to say his English is quite good. Just so that you can imagine this correctly, his accent is kind of silly; he stresses the first syllable of most words and sometimes gets the tenses of verbs mixed up- so if you see mistakes in my typing, this is why.
Me: I got bit by a spider last night... twice!
Aleš: Noo! That is impossible. The spiders do not bit here!
Me: Hmm, that's weird because I have two bites on my legs.
Aleš: You do not have two bits on your leg-- and if you do it was NOT by a spider.
Me: I'm pretty sure it's a spider. I'm allergic to spiders; when they bite me, the bite marks get pretty swollen.
Aleš: No, today when we are in the forest you will show me any spider and I will put to my hand and it will not bit me!
Me: Just because you pick up a spider and it doesn't bite you, doesn't mean they don't—
Aleš: Maybe they bit you, because you are a strange girl from America, with really really strange blood.
Me: Oh yeah, that's it. I'm sure that's it.
Aleš: Oh yes, I've got it. When you come here, in your bag, there were these spiders and now you have brought spiders that bit to my country.
Me: Yes. Yes, of course. Strange blood and my fault.
Tuesday, March 29, 2011
assignment #63
Friday, February 18, 2011
assignment #64
Teach us an exercise that you do regularly which yields results. Lead us through it, step by step, using a series of photographs, with captions below them. Test it out on a friend to make sure the instructions are accurate. Let us know what time during the day you do it, how many times a week, and how many repetitions. Tell us what the benefits of this exercise are (calming, tones ass, etc.) Let us know if this exercise is related to something you have done, or currently do (ballet, high school basketball warm-up, ashtanga yoga, self-invented, etc.) We are looking for unique exercises that you swear by and are longing to share with the world - exercises done regularly, almost religiously, not just one-time deals.
Bring arms up and stand with your feet sholder length apart. Bend down and hold arms.And stand back up.Repeat at least 24 times, every night and see a change in your legs and abs (but only if you do more than 25 more than twice day every day-results take effort!).
Monday, February 07, 2011
Assignment #40
Describe in writing a non-traditional method you have used to heal yourself. Include diagrams, photographs, or drawings as needed.
2.) Fill the sock with rice.
Monday, November 01, 2010
assignment #48
Create, perform, and record the saddest possible song you can. It can have lyrics or be instrumental, but needs to be a sincere attempt at making the saddest piece of music you have ever heard.
Friday, August 06, 2010
assignment #43
Take pictures of your parents art. This is the art you grew up with- that picture that has always hung above the toilet, the abstract print that confused you as a child, the statuette of an angel- art so familiar that you might not even think of it as art. But it is! And it shaped your vision of reality. Your photos should include a little bit of the surrounding area, a bit of the wall or table the art is on. Also, give a one-sentence description of how you viewed these as a child (Did you like it? Or, how did it make you feel?)
This is a print of elephants done on linen. It used to hang in my parent's room, it now resides in the basement over the circet breaker box. I love this. I want to get a tattoo of this some day.
When I was a kid, I used to call this ship wreck (even though the ships not wrecked) and I would make up stories that I would have to climb a mountain after my ship drifted to shore. I would take my robe and put plastic spoons my pcokets (climbing tools) and I would use the tie from my robe as my "rope" to get me up the mountain.
I don't have any special memories for this one, but whenever I see it, I know that I am home.
Wednesday, August 04, 2010
assignment #28
Conchita's Family.
Thursday, July 01, 2010
assignment #70
Sometimes it's hard to say goodbye. It just feels easier to keep holding on. But in the long run it's usually a good idea to let go, it's the daring thing to do. It allows room for new things, for transformation. And maybe the goodbye isn't even forever, but you can't know until you really say goodbye and mean it. In some cases, goodbye is really the end, and good riddance! For this assignment, say goodbye to all the things you need to let go of: bad habits, dead people, alive people, ex-boyfriends and girlfriends, self-destructive feelings and behaviors, jobs, projects, re-occurring thoughts, etc.
Write it as a simple list:
Goodbye Bill.
Goodbye wetting the bed.
Good bye interrupting people when they are talking.
etc.
It can be as long or as short as you like. And, most importantly, take a moment with each one to really say goodbye. This isn't a catalogue of your fears and faults, this is a ceremony to bid them farewell.
Goodbye picking at my nails
Goodbye panic attacks
Goodbye idleness
Goodbye control
Goodbye self loathing
Goodbye timidness
Goodbye nervousness and anxiousness
Goodbye excuses
Goodbye walls
Goodbye dwelling and obsessing
Goodbye thinking of life only from my perspective
Goodbye wanting things I don't need
Goodbye messiness
Goodbye Cocorosie
Goodbye internalizing
Goodbye shame
Goodbye procrastination
Goodbye Blake
Tuesday, June 22, 2010
assignment #56
Antelope, CA
21 Years old
Monday, May 24, 2010
assignment #55
Thursday, April 15, 2010
assignment #26
We met Mona through her clothes store, Soul Chain. She and her sister crocheted all of the clothes they sold there. We decided to design a dress for Mona to crotchet. We drew her a picture of what we wanted and told her what colors and type of yarn to use. She did various measurements on Miranda and then crotcheted the dress so that it pretty much looked exactly as we had designed it. She is still making clothes and for this assignment is willing to do more commissions. So what you need to do is design an article of clothing for Mona to make for you (you will have to pay Mona based on her rates so keep in mind that smaller simpler designs will also be cheaper) include colors, type of yarn and detailed measurements. Crocheting takes a long time so get your order in ASAP.
Monday, March 29, 2010
assignment #12
We really love Morgan Rozacky's project, completed for Assignment #2: "Make a neighborhood field recording". We don't know who she is or anything about her, but we like to think about her neighbors and their songs. Lester Tyra, Byran (Dale) Pope, Hazel Sedita...these people are like movie stars to us. Go to Assignment #2, look at and listen to Morgan's project, choose a neighbor and print out their picture. Then take this picture to a friend (or stranger) and ask them to draw a tattoo of the chosen neighbor on your body with a ball point pen. This will feel nice. Don't give them a lot of feedback, just encourage them to use their own drawing style.
Wednesday, March 24, 2010
assignment #52
Using a black pen, draw a picture of your cell phone. Be very precise and make your phone look as realistic as possible, you can trace the shape of the phone if you want. Please make your drawing by hand, not with a computer. In the window where the caller name appears, write the name of the person who you wish would call you. If you have to, use a fake name. Don't draw anything except the phone, leave the rest of the paper blank. In a separate document, type the conversation you wish you could have with this person. Use dialogue format, for example:
Me: Hello?
Mark Adams: Hi, it's Mark. Mark Adams.
Me: Oh. God. It's you. I think about you every day.
etc...
Me: Hello?
Major Judy: Good morning, Jessica! How are you doing?
Me: Good morning Major Judy. I'm doing pretty good, how are you?
Major Judy: I'm doing wonderful. I was just calling to let you know we've received great news! The territorial commander from the Czech Republic called and said they have the perfect spot for you and Kelsey.
Me: (heart pounding and jumping up and down, screaming silently) Wow, that's great!
Major Judy: If you accept this offer, you will leave September 2, 2010.
Me: Okay
Major Judy: What you will be doing is working a children's home in Prague that primarily deals with Gypsies. You will also spend sometime doing a bit of street ministry since there are many children who live on the streets. If you choose to stay another year and show that you are taking up the language, the TC has agreed to give you more options of other positions that you can fill.
Me: That sounds great!
Major Judy: I've talked it over with a couple of people and THQ will help you out with Rosetta Stone.
Me: I want to talk with Kelsey about this, but I think that this sounds like a go! Everything sounds perfect.
Major Judy: Of course, of course! Think about it. Pray about it. Just give me a call within the next two days to let me know your answer and I let Czech know.
Me: Thank you so much, Major Judy!
Major Judy: You are very welcome. Good bye.
Me: Bye!
Sunday, March 14, 2010
assignment #6
You may take pictures of the shadows or simply trace them. These solid shapes should then be drawn on paper and colored in with a single color. You are not interested in anything but the shadow itself, and you are most interested in shadows that don't look anything like the objects that created them; abstract shapes.. Choose either brown, pink, light green, orange or white. Use only one of these colors. If you would prefer you may cut out the shapes from colored paper. The shadows should appear on the page in a grid formation, in rows. Treat this like a index of shadows rather than a work of abstract art. The finished report should be pasted on (or drawn on) white paper of any size (even if, especially if, the color you chose for your shadows was white.) Do not label this poster in any way.
Sunday, March 07, 2010
assignment #50
Don't vacuum or alter anything under your bed beforehand. Take a photo under there with a strong flash, preferably with the camera sitting on the ground.
Monday, March 01, 2010
assignment #53
Choose a particular age you have been, perhaps a time when you were particularly lost. Write out a list of practical advice to yourself at that age. Begin the list with this header: "Advice To Michelle Cambell at Sixteen" (only use your name and whatever age you want.) You must specify the age that you are giving yourself advice to!! Be very specific with your advice, for example, don't just say "Hold on to your heart," but instead say "Don't go out with Kevin, he will eventually cheat on you. Go out with Jake instead, he is actually cooler." If you need to use fake names go ahead. It is easy to say that everything happens for a reason, but take this opportunity to redirect yourself towards what you think might have been better. Sure everything turned out ok, but maybe you should have quit that job five years earlier, maybe you should have had children when you were 27, maybe you should have flossed, maybe you should have gone to the alternative high school, or not said that thing to your best friend. Tell yourself what to do in clear, specific language. Do not write an essay, make it in list form.
Advice to Jessie at 12
1. Don't be so sad, people don't like downers and you'll be embarassed by your lack of smiles when you're older.
2. Don't let Keith touch your boob under the table in Social Studies, he will tell your friends and they will never let you live it down.
Advice to Jessie at 15
1. Don't think Jessie is cooler than Joyya and forget that she is your best friend.
2. Don't give that note to Joyya. You will lose your friendship and things will never be the same.
Advice to Jessie at 18
1. Don't smoke so much, doing homework high means you retain zero information.
2. Don't give your heart to Trevor, he will stop talking to you upbruptly and start going out with Merdith.
3. Don't leave college for Binny.
Advice to Jessie at 19
1. Don't lose your virginity to Binny, he's a jerk and will cheat on you.
2. Go to Camp, you will meet Jesus and your husband.
Tuesday, February 09, 2010
assignment #11
Photograph a scar on your body or on someone else's body. Make it a close-up shot so that it shows just the scar. Include a story about how the scar happened.
Growing up my family would go camping twice each summer, once to a new campground and once to our favorite, Battleground in Washington. When I was 12 we were at the new campground (I can't remember where) and Jeremiah had invited a neighbor boy, Jerry (his head was shaved, all except a patch towards his forehead).
One night we were roasting marsh mellows and making smores. I don't really like marsh mellows, but I wanted a smore so I grabbed the roaster stick (it was metal with two prongs) and started roasting my mellows. By the time I had decided I wanted a marsh mellow, Jeremiah and Jerry had finished, but instead of putting the roaster sticks in the bucket of cool water, they decided to heat them until they were more like lava sticks. Jerry then set his lava stick on the picnic table and walked away.
When I finished roasting, I made my way to the table with the chocolate and graham crackers, also the table harboring the lava stick. I wasn't long enough to reach over anything so I leaned on the table and put my forearm on the lava stick. It burned me. I don't remember it hurting too bad, the only thing I can say for certain is I didn't cry. Normally I would have cried, but because I didn't, I was proud.
Thursday, February 04, 2010
assignment #45
Saturday, January 30, 2010
assignment #16
Using paper, cardboard, colored pencils, glue and/or tape, make replicas of your sheets, blankets, comforters, pillows and anything else that comprises your bed. Then assemble them the way you assemble your bed. The completed bed should be roughly the length of a pencil. Take special care to reproduce the patterns on the fabric and any stains or other irregularities.
Friday, January 29, 2010
assignment #32
Rent a movie that made you cry. Fast forward to the exact point that really got you and pause the movie. Now draw this freeze-frame as accurately as possible. Also draw the tv and the table, or surface, that the tv is sitting on. Don't draw any other details of the room; this picture should be floating in the middle of an otherwise blank piece of paper. Draw everything as realistically as you can; don't be interpretive.
Wednesday, January 27, 2010
assignment #54
Click on an online daily news page such as Google or The New York Times. Pick a person from todays news, for example, I chose Interior Secretary Gale Norton, who resigned on the day this assignment was written. Type the person's name into Google Image Search. Using a colored pencil (just one color) select an image and draw it.
Haiti Earthquake Survivor
January 18, 2010
Tuesday, January 26, 2010
assignment #42
List five important things in 1984. These are things that had a major impact on you during the year 1984. They can be personal, political, cultural, animal or whatever. Each important event should be summarized in one sentence. (I wasn't born in 1984, so I will do 1994 instead)
1. Jenn (my younger sister) was two years old and she fell and busted her nose while dancing to Barney. She was on a rocking chair and fell into a coffee table.
2. I was in the second grade and I learned how to dye Easter eggs with onion skins. One day my children will learn this too.
3. My best friend was Joyya Hunter. She has a baby now.
4. I turned seven and had a Lion King birthday party.
5. The Hubble telescope reveals conclusive evidence of the existence of black holes, which had been purely theoretical up until this point.
Thursday, January 21, 2010
assignment #51
Here is your chance to think about and describe what you would like done with your body after you die. Do you want to be buried in a cemetery, cremated and scattered in the ocean, composted beneath an apple tree? If you don't make some decisions now, someone else will make them for you later. Feel free to be creative but try to make sure that what you describe for your final remains will be legal and really possible (not fantasy), so that your friends and family can actually carry out your wishes when the time comes. If there is a particular ceremony or activity that you would like to have accompany your final goodbye, describe that too.
When I die I want my organs to be donated first and then cremate me.
No one should ever wear black when I die, infact wear yellow and smile, for I will be with my maker.
Please, take me dancing under the stars and tell me your favorite memory.
Bring me to where that memory was and grab a handful of ashes.
Let go.
Pass the rest of my ashes to someone else who I loved and who loved me and have them do the same thing.
Repeat as many times as possible, but make sure you leave one handful.
With this handful, I would like to mixed with a willow tree's seeds and planted into the ground where everyone can visit me.
And when you cry, cry into the spot of which I was planted so that you will help me grow.
Come back and see me often.
Bring your children and tell them about the things we laughed at, the things we cried about and the times when we hugged.
And smile.
Tuesday, January 19, 2010
assignment #39
Seattle, WA 1/13/2010
Monday, January 18, 2010
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Learning To Love You More is a project that was started by Miranda July and Harrell Fletcher. They had a revelation that sometimes our most profound experiences come from following other people's instructions. When making crepes from a recipe, attempting to do a handstand in yoga class or singing someone else's song. Sometimes it seems like the moment we let go of trying to be original, we actually find something new-which was the whole point of being artists in the first place. (Miranda July & Harrell Fletcher)
I am accepting these instructions, the 70 assignments.